I get caught up ‘in my head’* a lot. I always have. Just today (at 50 years old) I have spent several hours reading about and looking for happiness and/or meaning in my life. Again.
I have been doing this since I was a teenager. I have spent so many hours examining my status or lack thereof, contemplating how to do and be better, writing down thoughts/poems/songs looking for undiscovered truths, searching for strengths, and questioning why I am where I am and how I could change it – that I’m a bit sad regarding the elapsed total time (Olympic reference intentional).
I have read many self-help books. After more than thirty years of reading I’m not certain what I’ve learned from them. *Eckhart Tolle in A New Earth writes that it is a bad thing to be “in the head” at all. I presume not getting out of my head has much to do with being stuck in the same place.
So, after much reading today about happiness and where to find it, as well as how to stop looking for it and let if find you, I have decided to (once again) focus on others as a way to find happiness in myself. The parents of the children I will soon have in my class for the coming school year would be pleased I’m sure. I am also reviving my attempts to live a mindful life.
Dr. Martin Seligman and his collaborators at Penn State have researched and written about some intriguing ideas and distinctions regarding happiness in their Authentic Happiness Newsletter.
If you are interested the most inspiring websites I saw today were:
So after a generous helping of dissatisfaction with myself once again today I will close with something I am proud of. Here is a photo I took that makes me very happy.
Wasatch Mountains east of SLC, UT